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Sep. 29th, 2008


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I'm baaaack!!!
And this time, with Weight Watchers. I did a lot of soul searching recently and I came to the conclusion that I have a lot of disordered eating patterns. I binge, and I am entirely too calorie obsessed. What I found myself doing was not eating all day, then having a dinner that consisted of two slices of pizza and half an order of fried calamari. Talk about unhealthy! Sure, I stuck within my caloric range but was I getting any nutritional benefit from this food? Absolutely not. Hence....Weight Watchers.

I did Weight Watchers in the past and it helped to successfully lose around 50 lbs. Considering the fact that I am currently back to where I started, I figured why not give it another shot? This way I am counting points, instead of calories, and trust me - 300 calories of pizza DO NOT have the same amount of points as 300 calories of a broccoli dish. This is what I need. That extra motivator to not only help me eat less but rather, eat the right things.

I am quite optimistic about it. Although the second time I tried WW, it didn't go far, I blame that primarily on the center at which I attended meetings. This time, I think I'll skip the meetings (for the time being) and just hold myself accountable on-line.

So wish me luck! Although I had wanted to stay away from points (since it's not realistic in the long-term for me), it's what I need at the moment. I can make adjustments later on as I see fit.

Jun. 12th, 2008


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I just did Level 1 of Jillian Michaels' 30-day Shred program. It's basically 20 minutes of circuit-training and I totally wanted to die. I cannot believe how out of shape I've gotten. I literally just started crying at one point because of how much pain I was in from attempting to do this. Nonetheless, I finished. My arms are shaky, and my legs are weak but I finished. Granted I took a break or two but it's done. I think I am going to have to start doing side-cardio to continue to do this DVD program - just like an hour of walking. Hopefully I can keep this up and god, I hope it gets easier!


Wow, this journal has lain abandoned for quite some time, but not too much longer as today I am 100% recomitting myself to my goals. What is helping is a book, cognitive theraphy based, that is focused on sustaining weight loss and inspiration. I am not far from my heaviest weight ever and that in itself is scary enough.

I am using thedailyplate.com to track and have been for the past week or so, even though I have been over. I also adapted a vegetarian diet two months ago (not weight-loss related). Last but not least, I turned 25 a week ago.A quarter of a century. I don't want to miss out on any more of my twenties because of something like weight.

Mar. 26th, 2008



Off track again!!

I was doing fine throughout the week then Easter came and well, bad bad bad. I have two months until my 25th birthday (give or take a week). 9 weeks that I can really gear toward this goal. I have to keep that number in mind.

I feel so horrible that this journal has become less about successes are more about "Ok this is the last time" in EVERY entry. Let's see if I can realistically alter my weight in two months. 15 lbs doesn't sound too drastic - and that will put my at my weight pre-quitting smoking.

Where are my biggest weaknesses?
- ordering lunch (but that's a burden that's not too difficult for me to overcome
- WEEKENDS!!! (alcohol and the binges).

Gah. As of this moment, I am back on spark people. One of these "last chances" finally has to be it.

Mar. 19th, 2008


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Let's get this out of the way:
Current Weight: 209.4

How does that make me feel? Not too horrible, actually. I'm still not as heavy as I was in January (maybe by like 1.5 lbs but still...) and it's not the heaviest I've been. Sure compared to the low of 184 I hit with Atkins last year it's horrid but that doesn't matter. The slate has been wiped clean.

My boyfriend did not get a chance to take pictures of me last night because he was rather busy but today he will. I do plan on posting them here so be warned! It's a big step for me - and I feel will help in moving me towards a better self image.

I  actually did it! I went to the grocery, loaded up on veggies and before bed last night made my salad for today. It looks super yummy - mixed greens, cucumber, radish, celery, cherry tomatoes. I sprayed on some wishbone dressing, added like 2 tbsps of reduced fat parmesan cheese and...voila! I also bought whole wheat pita bread last night so I will be having 1 1/2 pieces with the salad. My only concern is that there is no protein (as the chicken is still frozen) so I might get hungry a lot sooner. Maybe I'll stop at the butcher and get some today.

   - 1 cup of lower sugar maple sugar oatmeal (110 cals)
   - 16 oz. black tea
   - 1 cup 1% milk
   - 1 med. Gala apple
   - Yummy salad as described above
   - 1 1/2 pitas (about 225 calories)

As you may have noticed, some of the items above have a calorie count. Some with a question mark. That's really for me to figure out how good I am at estimating calories. Since I'm not using a calorie tracker, I want to make sure that I don't have a skewered view of how many calories an item contains.

Mar. 18th, 2008


Such a rut

But no more!!!

I refuse to be controlled by food. 
Today, after work, I am buying veggies and planning out my lunches for the rest of the week. Salads, mostly. 

Exercise is very difficult for me so I will wait on that a little, until I get my eating habits back under control. 

1) I need to write in here basically daily.
2) Buy copious amounts of veggies at least once a week
3) Grill a bunch of chicken at once to use in salads.
4) Find some healthy, whole wheat pita bread.

No more excuses. I have no one to blame but myself.


   - 20oz. coffee.
   - 1 cup 2% milk
   - 8oz. miso soup
   - 8oz. weird seaweed salad
   - 9 pieces sushi (I had no breakfast so my lunch was pretty big)
   - 1 can Progresso light soup (Southwestern Veggie)
   - 2 slices of pizza

Water Intake
8 cups

Overall I don't think I did so badly. I didn't get my veggies in though (unless seaweed counts) so I'm not couting today as a "check" day. Blah. Maybe tomorrow will be better :)

I have an idea that will reward myself daily, not just over time. 
For example, every day that I do well, I get a check. After 30 checks, I get to buy myself stuff off of my Amazon wishlist (around $50 value). What do you guys think?

Mar. 5th, 2008



It's been practically a month since my last post and, honestly, about the same amount of time has passed since I last eat healthy or exercised. It's amazing how easy it is to fall back into old habits. So, since it's already March, here I am, attempting to kick-start my goals because if I get on track, I can be at my goal weight by Thanksgiving!

Anyway, I guess I have recently been inspired by going through friends wedding pictures. One day in the not-so-distant future I hope to be married and I want to look like the most beautiful bride ever. 

So, since my habits have gotten so way out of control, I am back to tracking food. I will start the gym back up on Monday - probably just walking. I absolutely hate exercise more than anything so that is definitely a step up.

I also must admit that I have been kinda sick recently and that is why I really failed myself in mid-February. I'm really working to get it all figured out though. Doctors, galore!

The biggest fear I have right now is that I ballooned back up to (or over) my starting weight. Weigh-in tomorrow.

Feb. 14th, 2008


Week 5

Starting Weight: 211
Current Weight: 204
Week Gain/Loss: - 2 lbs.
Total Gain/Loss: - 7 lbs.
Mini Goal: 190 (14 lbs. to go)   

I'll take it. :D There's two weeks left in February so maybe I can get under 200 before the end of the month. Tonight I'm splurging on yummy (and bad for you) Indonesian food but that's only because it's Valentine's Day. I just have to work super hard to get to goal. I can do eeet!


Feb. 13th, 2008


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 So I haven't ranted in a bit but things are still going pretty well. I haven't been tracking but I don't think that's been working too badly against me. I think I lost like 2 lbs, based on what the scale said this morning but, again, official weigh-in is not until tomorrow. There's just been a bunch of stuff going on but I'm still going to try to update regularly.

Gym today (no excuses). I think it'll be a good run. :)

Feb. 7th, 2008


Week 4

Starting Weight: 211
Current Weight: 206
Week Gain/Loss: +1.2 lbs.
Total Gain/Loss: - 5 lbs.
Mini Goal: 190 (16 lbs. to go)  

Well, I gained :X Over a pound. I'm not sure why. Maybe it was all the sodium I've been eating recently? I can't think of much else I've been doing wrong (other than not working out). I am not going to let it deter me, though. I hope to be 200 by the end of the month but that would require a steady loss of around 2 lbs a week. Judging by how things are going, the chances are pretty slim. I just have to keep up what I'm doing and I will see a loss next week.

That has always been my problem. I do really well, don't see the scale move for a week or two, then change it up and get disappointed. Here are my "vows" for next week:

- STOP IT WITH THE SODIUM (aka canned soup, overwhelming garlic salt, etc.)
- Eating healthy on weekends while still treating myself.
- Kinda ties in with above - portions, portions, portions. I am really bad with portion control and can (and have many many times) eat like 3 slices of pizza in a sitting. 
- Lowering alcohol intake. Yes, I love to drink. Yes, I refuse to give up my beer on weekends. I just have to drink slower and start later. I have a pretty high tolerance so I can (and have many many times :P) polish off a 12-pack by myself without flinching. This will be a real challenge for me on Friday night so we'll see how it goes.
- GO TO THE GYM - I'm really trying but end up going only like 2 days a week. I've had to redo like week 1 of Couch to 5K like 3 times :p

Starting with that, I am going to go to the gym during lunch and eat something awesome and packed with veggies when I get back. I'll start looking at ideas now. Since I always order out for lunch, I like using it as a way to get most of my veggie servings in with a salad. Then when dinner rolls around, at least I know that if I'm stuck in a veggie-less bind (aka sushi, fish and potatoes, etc) I still got my daily needs met. :)

Feb. 6th, 2008



So, like a silly silly girl I decided to weigh myself this morning, just to see what the number was (even though my WI day is Thursday). Egads! 1.4 lbs GAINED. I was utterly confused. The whole reason I even weighed myself today is because I had a great couple of days and wanted a number to motivate me. Well, that plan totally blew up in my face. I'm trying not to get too discouraged but alas, it is hard. I also haven't been to the gym since Monday and can't go today because directly after work, I am going to see the Spice Girls in concert. Yep! Haha maybe I'm a massive tool but I have no problems admitting it. :)

Basically, I don't want to be all sweaty and gross for the show. :p

Yesterday I signed up at The Daily Plate. I really like the website but I don't like the fact that there is a pay-for option. Granted, it might just be worth it. I have an account on sparkpeople and fitday but I get bored of tracking very easily. What I really like about Daily Plate is that it gives you more accurate calorie needs, food info, and the layout is cooler. The cons are that it takes a bit to load on my crappy work internet line (shh, don't tell ;p) and that the results are kinda mess (like 5 different results for just "broccoli.") I am going to give this site a shot though and see how long I can last tracking on it.

So yeah, tomorrow is my official weigh-in day. I'm super nervous but alas, must face the music.  I'll still track it here, even if it's a number I'm not too proud of, and I'll still keep on chugging along. If I hit under 200 by the end of February, I'll be happy.
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Feb. 4th, 2008


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I went to the gym today and I feel great! I burned about 320 calories in 30 minutes on the treadmill and, best of all, I was actually running at certain points (for like 6 minutes total)! I have never been able to run. I was never a sporty kid, I much prefered to sit in my room and read. =^_^= 

I can't wait to build up the maintenance to run even longer, and faster. And yeah, I'm here at work all sweaty, and my hair is gross, and my cheeks are still red (I'm very pale), and I'm just so happy. Why don't I ever remember how awesome this feeling is? Maybe I will now! 

So far this is what I ate today:
7:30 am
8oz coffee with 2% milk

9:30 am
1 packet Quaker (Lower Sugar) Instant Oatmeal
16 oz. black tea with fat-free milk.

3:00 pm
64 oz (!!!) salad with crab meat, goat cheese, portabello, and kidney beans (a little fat-free raspberry vinagrette) LOL wow I just realized that probably only sounds appetizing to me. :p

- Craploads of water 

So yeah, I really need to start eating either a bigger breakfast or a snack (or both). I work out during my lunch hour so I usually don't actually eat lunch until after my workout (which is usually sometime between 2-4pm). Running on just a small packet of oatmeal, water, and tea definitely isn't enough for me. Maybe I'll start small with a banana for a snack at like 11am and see how it goes. I guess the problem is that I usually get the bulk of my calories in the evening (I have never eaten breakfast and often skipped lunch for the the past 7 years). So yeah, I'll eat like nothing then for dinner have 3 slices of pizza and something else. I really want to change that. It is tempting though since I live with my boyfriend and we order out like 4-6 nights a week (so bad, I know! lol).

Edit: I plan on taking pictures soon so that I can see my progress. I'm debating on asking my BF to take them. They'll probably come out better but I'm more ashamed to do that. Yeah, I know it's silly. I mean the man sees me naked on a regular basis, but still. :p


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NYC requires restaurants to make calorie info public
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Jan. 31st, 2008


Week 3

Starting Weight: 211
Current Weight: 204.8
Week Gain/Loss: 1.2 lbs.
Total Gain/Loss: -6.2 lbs.
Mini Goal: 190 (14.8 lbs. to go)  

Yay! I'll take it! Although, truth be told that loss was in a two week period, it's still far, far better than a gain and I am close to being under 200 again, which is something I desperately need to do. Last time I dieted, I swore to myself that I would never let myself get to 200 again, it happened. This time, I know it won't, because this time, I won't be forever teetering in the vicinity.

One thing I have to step up my game in is working out. I went on Tuesday and biked for 30 mins. I suppose I should also go today. Eating well isn't that hard for me. It's the exercise aspect I have a problem with. :/ One motivating factor for me is that my boyfriend also joined a gym (like yesterday). I tend to get pretty competitive so I need to shape up before he does heh. Hopefully it will keep be motivated. :)

Jan. 29th, 2008


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 So, no gym yesterday because I forgot my sneakers at home. Dare I say that I was secretly glad? :X

Nothing too horrible, food-wise (minus the chocolate that I had to have). I decided to actually track my food this week just to see how sucessful I am trying to eat healthy, when left to my own devices. That Spinach Feta wrap kinda put me over my 1200 that I was planning for Monday. :) 

Today I'm trying to stick to a similar calorie goal.

 Food NameServingsServing SizeCalsFatCarbProt
 Starbucks Spinach Feta Breakfast Wrap 1   serving240102913
 Coffee, NS as to type 8oz. mug 5010
 Tea, NS as to type, unsweetened 1 8oz. mug 2010
 Lettuce, raw 5  cups, shredded 33163
 Avocado, raw 4  slices 64631
 Cheese, Blue or Roquefort .25  cup, crumbled 1191017
 Salad dressing, KRAFT LIGHT DONE RIGHT! Ranch Dressing 4  tablespoons 1541461
 Crustaceans, shrimp, mixed species, raw 10  medium 641112
 Water 10  cup 0000
 Salmon, baked or broiled 8  oz, boneless, cooked 38917154
 Snowpea (pea pod), cooked, from fresh, fat not added in cooking 1  cup 670115
 Thai Lemongrass Shrimp Soup 1  serving 18221627
 Chocolate, milk, with almonds .5  bar 1087112
Totals 1427 6886126

Oh, I did buy two pairs of pants yesterday from NY & Company. God bless their little hearts for letting me fit into a size "Large" when clearly, I am probably a 16 in most sizing charts. Also, props to them for having strechy work pants that feel just like sweats. I know where I'm blowing cash once I get to geal. :D

Jan. 28th, 2008


Not Surprised

Well, last week was a dud, to say the least. I was sick with laryngitis for the majority of it so therefore I ate soft, warm, comfort foods such as pasta (lotsa pasta) with thick, creamy sauces.

Today is back to the grind and I'm not going to overwork myself or anything. I am going to redo Week 1 of Cto5K, which basically involves a lot of fast-paced walking. 

I did not weigh myself last Thursday, primarily because I forgot but also due to dread of seeing what the number would be. This Thursday, I am weighing myself without a doubt (even though it's my girly time and I'll most likely be bloated). 

This morning was another bad one when I couldn't zip up my pants. As much as I hate to do it, I think after work today I am going to try to go and get a pair of "fat pants" for work. I'll try to find a cheap pair, as they will only be temporarily worn, but yeah this is getting ridiculous. I can't wear pants that don't fit me and are uncomfortable any longer. As much as it pains me to go to the store and pick up a pair of (dare I say) size 16 pants, i'll have to swallow my pride for now.

I have a positive feel about this week so I hope I can succeed. This has to be my last chance, because it will be the one after which I will succeed. If I don't do this now, what's to say I ever will?

Jan. 23rd, 2008


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 It's been a while and I haven't been eating well because I got sick. Flu sick. It really sucks and I'm trying hard not to let my health anxiety get the best of me. 

I will still weigh-in on Thursday but I will not be surprised with a gain on the scale. Next week, it's back to the grind.

Jan. 18th, 2008


My Reasons...

 1. To look good naked.
2. To fit into better clothes.
3. For a competition.
4. To keep heart disease at bay.
5. To age more gracefully.

6. To stave off diabetes, or keep it in check.
7. Better bone density.
8. Better mental acuity.
9. In case of emergency (combat or disaster functionality).
10. Better recovery from injury or surgery.
11. Stress relief.
12. Sleep better.
13. Better self image.
14. Reduce blood cholesterol (LDL) and other negative health markers.
15. Live longer.

16. Reduce cancer risk.
17. Injury prevention.
18. Better immune system function.
19. Enhance sexual desire and performance.
20. Lower resting heart rate and blood pressure.
21. Better digestive function.
22. Reduced possibility of gallstones.
23. Reduced risk of stroke.
24. Improved balance and coordination.
25. Better complexion.
26. Less guilt associated with treats or desserts.
27. To help me meet other goals.
28. To be more like people who inspire me.
29. To prepare a healthy womb for a future baby.

Jan. 17th, 2008


Week 2 - Blargh...

Current Weight: 206
Week Gain/Loss: 0 lbs.
Total Gain/Loss: -5 lbs.
Mini Goal: 190 (16 lbs. to go)

So, apparently I did not lose any weight this week, which I'm actually ok with. Why am I ok with this? Because I know that my scale is a liar. :P Well, not quite, but I can't see why I wouldn't have lost anything so I can only chock it up to these reasons:

  • I had a lot of sodium yesterday (mostly in the form of soy sauce, which I am like crazy about, as bad as it is for you. :P)
  • I've been working out everyday this week, which can mean that my muscles are retaining water.

Although it is always nice to see a number lower than last week, I also know that I haven't been too crazy with my food intake (with the exception of Saturday) and that next week, hopefully, by body will catch up. I do have to remember to incorporate more veggies, though.

My mother's birthday is this weekend and she is making her famous lasagna which is TO DIE FOR. :D Of course I'm going to have some, and not beat myself up over it, I'll just have to make sure that next week, I am strict. :)


Jan. 15th, 2008


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Horrendously fat day is over. I feel a lot better because:

a) I have the most loving, awesome boyfriend in the world. 
b) I did my first day of my 5K program - which basically meant I power-walked on the treadmill for 30-35 minutes
c) I found a lot of supportive websites that help me cope a bit better with my health anxiety. I have decided that I am going to try to heal myself first, before seeing someone. I just don't want to become dependent on anti-depressants or Xanax, and I want to try to better myself first. Sometimes I just have to take a deep breath and let myself know that there is nothing wrong with me. Not every sore throat, bump, or itch is something serious. As a matter of fact, usually it's nothing. 

Although I did go a little crazy yesterday and had a heaping bowl of chili. Someone please remind me why I thought it would be a good idea to make a big pot of chili so that it can tempt me in the fridge all week? At least it's remotely healthy. The bf and I bought 97% lean ground beef and there's nothing else that's an added fat or oil - just beans and veggies.

Today is strenght training at the gym. It's been a while for that, too and I'm sure I lost all the stamina I had. I'm pretty excited. Although I'm not back to being gym crazy as I was previously, I feel that it is starting to redevelop. Yay for that!

Jan. 14th, 2008


It's One Of Those Days...

...a dreaded, horrid fat day.

This weekend entailed entirely too many liberties that I had allowed myself. From insanely delicious catered food, to beer, even a caramel apple! And although I know that it's not physically possible to gain 10 lbs in 2 days, I seriously feel like I did.

I put on my pin-stripe suit this morning and yeah, not only can I not close the pants but the jacket can barely button. It just got me really down on myself this morning. I guess when you add the fact that it's pretty disgusting outside AND it's a Monday, depression is bound to rise.

Currently, I am having some breakfast - which consists of a yogurt, apple and a small cup of coffee. Today I actually plan on starting my "Couch to 5K" plan. Sure,  I do not (at all) want to go to the gym today, but I feel like I have to. If not for my physical health then for my mental well-being. Exercise has been shown to greatly reduce depression and, unfortunately, I have been rather depressed recently. I've actually been thinking about seeing a therapist primarily because I think I have turned into a huge hypochondriac. Any slightest thing that I notice if "off" with my body, and I think I have the worst possible diseases under the sun. Sometimes I really freak myself out and get mild panic attacks. Ever quiz that I take on-line rates my hypochondria as high-severe. I know I should probably speak with someone but I am not brave enough to do that right now. I'm going to try to pick up some books and find some sides to help me cope.

Jan. 10th, 2008


Well, Not Too Shabby!

Current Weight: 206
Week Gain/Loss: -5 lbs.
Total Gain/Loss: -5 lbs.
Mini Goal: 190 (16 lbs. to go)

Wowza! Five pounds? Can it be? I suppose it could but primarily:
a) I had my period the last time I weighed in so that could definitely be why my weight was so much higher last week.
b) I am actually eating healthy! Egads!

I'm just hoping these numbers aren't off. After reading an entry in one of the communities I belong to, I realized that I have never changed the battery in my digital scale. My scale is about 4 years old. Today I tried to step on/off the scale to see if it gave me the same number every time. My first number was 206, then 205, 205, 205 (at this point I got excited), then it went UP to 206.2 twice. This is why I just called my weight an even 206 this week. I guess I am a bit anal and I like to weigh myself about 3 times during my "weigh in day." If the same number appears all three times, great. If not, I usually take an average. 

Now I know 1 lb. isn't too big of a difference for the scale to tell me (I could have been standing more on the edge), but I just want to make sure that the batteries aren't an issue so that I am confident in my number every week.

Aaaanyway, the gym didn't get started this week due to being slightly sick but Monday it's Couch to 5K or bust! As far as eating habits have gone, I'm still healthy - with the exception of yesterday when I had a bowl of crab bisque (!!!) AND like 1/3 of a turkey and brie sandwich. I didn't let my habits continue into the evening though and opted for a nice light tuna melt.

I do like the fact that my boyfriend is also trying to eat healthy. It keeps me in check. I'll feel like going "screw it" and having like a ton of cheese and then I see him snacking on hummus and crackers and I can't possibly look like the lard-ass :p We had rotisserie chicken the other night and I made him aware, when we were buying it at the store, that he absolutely CANNOT let me eat the skin (mmm...crispy chicken skin). Just because I told him that, the second we loaded our plates, I immediately took the skin off so he couldn't call me out on it. :P

So today breakfast was a small apple, a fat-free yogurt and some black tea with a bit of fat-free milk. I have really gotten into drinking my tea with milk. Hey, the calcium is an added bonus! :D


Jan. 8th, 2008


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So, it's been a couple of days since my last update and so far, things aren't going so badly, at least as far as food intake is concerned. I have yet to show my mug at the gym but that will be remedied starting Monday, when I have more time during my lunch break.

I must admit that my veggie intake during weekends has been slacking so I need to correct that before I get any further in this whole plan. Granted, I am very proud of myself for, still, making appropriate choices (for the most part). It's much easier for me throughout the week as opposed to weekends.

As for red meat, I still really haven't had any this year so that resolution isn't as difficult to keep as I thought. Once a week is fine but I would much prefer for fish or seafood to be my meal staple.

I plan on weighing myself on Thursday mornings so I can't wait til then to see if my change was documented on the scale. I did kinda take a peek this morning and saw a difference of -2 lbs but that's not official. :P We'll see soon enough. :)

In other news, I think I have a mild stomach bug. My stomach has been bothering me for a while now and I've kinda got a cold. My boyfriend's stomach has been really bad for like the past month so I'm hoping it's nothing too bad. :/ We both have a similar diet.

Jan. 4th, 2008



I used to make this chili when I still lived at home and, since it's been a while, I'm going to make it again but this time, for the BF. It also makes a lot so yay leftovers! :D

2 lbs ground turkey
1 large onion, chopped (use a yellow one)
1 large green bell pepper, chopped
1 large jalapeno, chopped
1 Tablespoon chili powder
1 Tablespoon cayenne pepper
1 Tablespoon garlic powder.
1 teaspoon salt
¼ teaspoon pepper
1 tsp sugar
1 28oz can crushed tomatoes
1 28oz can tomato puree
2 14 oz cans beans (kidney or hot chili beans or whichever else you prefer)

1. Dump the ground meat into a large skillet. Cook until brown.
2. Remove the beef from the pan, leaving the grease behind (it shouldn’t be too much grease because you’re using low-fat ground beef).
3. Saute chopped onion and green pepper in remaining grease from beef for about 7-8 minutes (it should get soft).
4. Add beef back to the mix. Add spices, mix well and allow to stand covered for 1 hour. You MIGHT want to add a little more of the spices since you like spicy. TASTE IT FIRST THOUGH.
5. Pour into crock pot and add tomatoes, tomato puree and beans.
6. Cook in crock pot on low at least 4 hours.
7. This is GREAT leftover!!!

**This makes kind of runny chili. If you like your chili thicker, you can use ½ the puree (buy a 14oz can instead of a 28oz can)!**

Jan. 3rd, 2008



Hello wonderful world of livejournal.

It is the 3rd day of 2008 and, technically, I should have been three days into the plan for a better me. That's not altogether the case. On the 1st (as is to be expected), I was home nursing a hangover and eating as much buttery,creamy sauces as I could manage - almost like a "going away" present to myself. Yesterday, I started making small steps in the right direction but was horribly sabotaged by one of my co-workers who brought me Garret Popcorn. That stuff is so goood and sooo bad for you. I had like 1/2 of a small bag.

Today, I managed to finish off the rest of the bag but lunch was a healthy salad, and breakfast - an apple and non-fat yogurt. 

Really, I haven't tracked my food at all yet and I'm kinda debating on whether or not I should start inputting it into sparkpeople again. I know that journaling food usually means a higher success rate I also know that journaling food gets really tedious to myself and that it's not something that's very easy for me to stick to. I think it will be something that I do if I feel like I find myself taking a lot of liberties. I just want to get into the habit of eating healthy because I want to eat healthy - not only because of the numbers of calories involved.

Also, starting Monday, I am going to begin doing a "Running for Mortals" plan plan that I found in Shape Magazine. It's basically a "Couch to 5K" plan that has a 12 week time span (Here is the link for those interested). It might take me a bit longer at first (until I adjust to working out on Saturdays) but it is something that I truly hope to achieve. Since I quit smoking, I would love to feel what my lungs are capable of.

So, without further ado, here are my current stats:

Age: 24
Height: 5'10"
Current Weight: 211 lbs.
Goal Weight: 150 lbs.
First "mini" goal (10%): 190 lbs.

I tried researching the number of calories that I would need to maintain my current weight and have input my stats into several different websites. Unfortunately, no two numbers I received were alike. According to the site of the ACS (American Cancer Society), I would have to eat 3500 calories a day to maintain my weight. Calorie-Council gave me a number closer to 2500. Finally, I decided to do it the "old skool" way and found a formula in a scientific paper published by the American Heart Association:

Use the following formula to estimate your energy (calorie) needs to maintain weight:


  1. Multiply current weight in pounds: 211 x 10 = Base Calories  2110.
  2. Multiply current weight in pounds: 211 x 3 (if not active), x 5 (if moderately active), or x 8 (if very active) = Activity Calories 633. 
  3. Add Base Calories + Activity Calories = Total Calories to Maintain Weight: 2743.

So, in order to maintain my weight, I would have to eat around 2750 calories a day. This means that to lose, I would (like, duh) have to eat less. I have read several articles that advocate cycling your calories so as not to let your metabolism adjust too quickly. Therefore I am going to be rotating between 1200 to 2000 calories a week (mind you, I will also be working out daily).

I am hoping for something along the lines of:
Monday - 1200 calories
Tuesday - 1300 calories
Wednesday - 1400 calories
Thursday - 1500 calories
Friday - 2000 calories
Saturday - 2000 calories
Sunday - 1500 calories

It might seem like a lot but, again, I am going to be working out and it's still less than I need to maintain my weight. Of course, I will adjust this if life deems it necessary.

I also plan (hope) to use my calories towards nourishing foods (with treats and alkiehol every once in a while). Along with this, I commit to:

- Only eating red meat once a week, or less
- Making vegetables a part of EVERY meal
- Drinking less alcohol (this will be a hard one)
- Preparing most of my meals at home (not eating out as much).

So, today has been an okay day (sans popcorn) and dinner can't be all that bad either. Let's just hope my wellness carries on and by this time, in 2009, I will be reading this post and smugly patting myself on the back. :)

After all, I turn 25 this year (quarter of a century!), and I certainly don't want to think that I am already finished with just half of my life. More like a quarter!

Happy new year, to me, indeed!